I love this song.

"You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)"

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

You are loved
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved





Please watch this video.

Poem 1

The pain is become unbearable. I am sinking. Will you grab my hand and pull me through the pain and torture? Will you stand beside me when I feel wrong, and ugly? Will you hold me when my world feels like its crumbling and I can't stand? My world is beautiful with you in it. So stay with me when my world turns ugly. I know if you do, then my world will bloom again and become beautiful, just like it once was. You are my world. Just remember that.

Tuesday

For Tuesday.

The interview.

Okay so its been a while since I have posted anything. Well I have an interview on Thursday. I am excited but scared. I really want this job. If I get this, things will finally be looking up. I really need that. So please pray for me. Jeff, said that is grandmother and pappy are praying for me. He wants me to get this job too. He know that will take stress off of me. It will. So If God is listening to me at this moment, "Please help me through this, help me be confident, and what they are looking for." Please.



Tell after the interview.
Steph

Worrying

I can't stop worrying. There are many reasons. One of them being finding a new job, one that pays well. Another and a big one, is Jeff. He is so sad about what happened the other day. He just text messaged me asking why this had to happen to him. Why does all the bad stuff always happen to him? He kept asking me that. I told him I don't really know, but I am here for you. He is just really upset and when he is upset I am upset. He feels as if he has lost the trust of his parents. I don't think he did. I really don't, it was an accident. He did not hurt anyone. He just damaged the car. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS THAT HE WAS NOT HURT. He does not see it like that right now. All he is seeing is anger. I am just happy he is okay.

Tons of things have been happening. I just can't seem to put them into groups. I don't sleep at night, I am stressed out.

Well till next time.

Well what a change.

I am no longer in school. WHICH BY THE WAY KINDA SUCKS. I now have so much to take care of its not funny. I miss my friends at school. The good thing is that I see Jeff a lot now. It makes me feel better. I hope that my Thiel Friends understand that I do love them and that I am planning on coming up as soon as I can. Jenny my one friend moved into my old room. I don't know how to feel about it. I am kind of sad. Which is understandable because I am not there anymore, and it hurts. At Thiel I made more friends then I realized. And I miss them all very much. One day I will go back to school, but for now I am looking for a good job with 40 hours. I really need this. So say a little prayer for me.
Till next time.

Christmas cookie baking.

What a HOOT that was, well we (my sister, Mom, and I) are making Christmas cookies. Well today my sister and I started to make pumpkin roll, that WAS TO FUNNY. Shane, my sisters boyfriend came over to help, and not to long after that My boyfriend surprised me by showing up too. Which was great.

My sister and I started to make pumpkin roll, and when we took the first roll out, I was like this is going to suck. I Started to sing the I HATE PUMPKIN ROLL song. I just made it up on the spot and had my sister howling by the time I was done singing it. After awhile things just got funnier and funnier. I ended up hitting my sister with the side of a hot jelly roll pan ( it did not really hurt her) and I ended up on the floor laughing so hard I peed my pants. Shane thought that I was joking. I SO WAS NOT. Jeff was just laughing at me. He said that I am never going to live that down. Well that is okay. Because I had him laughing really hard and that just makes me smile =).

We then made Snails, Which are an Anise Oil Cookie. (Not a butt cookie as Jeff calls it.) These cookies not going to lie kind of look like little piles of dog poop. They are in the shape of a snail thing. You would just have to see it to understand. LOL Jeff was again having a blast with making the snails. He left before we finish, I wished he would have stayed because We would have had even more fun. lol.

Tomorrow my sister and I are making sugar cookies and going to decorate them.
Then Friday we are making spritz cookies. Then we are done, with making Christmas cookies.

Well till next time keep laughing!